Black Moments in
Fiction…and Life
In literature, I
love reaching that emotional climax when the protagonist’s future seems bleak,
hoping that a minute chance for a HEA—or Happily Ever After—still remains. Yet
when my own life takes a similar turn, I grow increasingly frustrated, doubting
a personal HEA exists.
Just as I prefer
to write by plotting out the major scenes in outline form before delving into
my next novel, I prefer to map out my future career plans and goals than to
simply take things as they come. But unexpected twists in the road of life
occasionally throw off my plans.
And lately,
these black moments seem to be occurring with increasing regularity.
Nine years ago, I resigned from full-time teaching to stay home and raise our children. By teaching part-time in the evenings, I felt like I never truly left the classroom. Yet when my oldest son entered school, I abandoned the part-time gigs to keep my evenings free for his homework and sports.
As busy as my
children kept me with their activities at home, a void began to grow in my
life. No longer needing to read Geometry, Algebra II, and ACT prep books in my
spare time to prepare myself for answering myriad student questions, my brain
thirsted for a new challenge. In response, an unachieved goal continually
surfaced in my mind.
Personally, I’m
driven by goals. Wanted to run a marathon…check (and I completed four, to be
exact). Wanted to live in Hawaii…check. (Then missed it so much after we
returned to the mainland that I made my husband move back to the islands).
Wanted to publish a book…
Unchecked.
Despite my
growing commitments to my children’s school and sports, I decided to act on
this dream. At the time, my naiveté was bliss, never guessing how time and
effort I’d invest over the next few years in order to actually achieve this
goal. But looking back, I believe all of it was worthwhile to be where I am
today, especially since my prospects of returning to my previous career as a
full-time teacher are slim. Between recessional government cutbacks that forced
my school district to eliminate numerous teaching positions and a genetic
autoimmune disease called iritis that flared in my eyes and left me extremely
light sensitive, I sought another career option.
Though my life
may differ from my original plans, I’m done losing sleep over those black
moments as I follow this dream down a new path.
Debbie Kump is
the author of 7G, Exiled to the North, Transformed, and Disappearances. Her titles are available in ebook and paperback on
Amazon or direct from World Castle Publishing and Whiskey Creek Press.
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